Hello dear, it’s very sad to hear all about your story. You are not the only one suffering from this issue. Be relax, don’t make yourself panic. If you will behave in such a manner. You will be more stressed. And you know stress is not better for you. The more soon you will accept things better for you. And being a normal person you can achieve much. Focus on your diet also. Don’t ignore it. Please take proper care of yourself. Make your body strong internally. You should be healthy to have a healthy baby. Focus on your flaws first. then go to the doctor for the rest things. Better luck next time.